It’s important to note that understanding the Gospel and Believing that salvation was given to us when Jesus Died on the cross and rose again for the forgiveness of sins are two different things.

I will never understand the Gospel fully no matter how hard I try. No one does. Even Mary didn’t fully understand the Gospel for example when she thought Jesus was lost as a young boy when Jesus was at the temple and she didn’t understand why?

Understanding the Gospel didn’t save anyone.
Only Christ saved us through faith given by the Holy Spirit in that moment of clarity some 2000 years ago. Salvation is always on Jesus shoulders not our own shoulders.

Remember “Jesus has us,” “We don’t have Jesus!” Afterall it is Jesus who is carrying us on His back like that Rugged Cross and bringing us Home. Not the other way around